I hear you, and I can understand how confusing this feels. To have a heart full of ambition, but as soon as things start becoming real, your body and mind slow down.
In the beginning, there was fire.
Motivation.
Confidence.
That certainty inside you saying, “Yes, I will do this.”
And then somehow, without even realizing when it happened, that fire quietly turned into smoke.
Now you look at yourself and call it laziness.
But I want you to pause here...
When we label ourselves as lazy, we stop being curious about what is actually happening inside us. And the truth is, your mind is never truly “doing nothing” 🧠
Let’s understand it.
Imagine your brain as a gardener. You give this gardener the seeds of your new, big, meaningful dreams.
But the gardener is not starting from empty land.
The soil already has roots of many seeds from the past. Many of them are unwanted weeds. Some of those roots are memories of failure. Some are old criticisms. Some are moments where things did not go the way you hoped.
Now the tools the gardener has are shaped by all those experiences. And while you are asking it to plant something new, it is also trying to clear out weeds that have been growing for years to make space.
While storms of anxiety pass through. Self-doubt shakes the ground. Uncertainty makes the soil unstable.
From outside, it might look like nothing is happening.
But inside, the gardener is working very hard.
Your brain is not being lazy. It is working overtime.
It is processing old echoes of criticism. It remembers how much it hurt the last time something did not work out. It is trying to protect you from experiencing that pain again.
At the same time, it is learning new information, building new pathways, and storing it in long-term memory. That takes energy. A lot of energy.
And here is something very important to understand.
Your brain is designed to conserve energy.
Its primary job is survival, not success.
So when a task feels emotionally risky, mentally demanding, and uncertain in outcome, your brain quietly shifts into energy-saving mode.
And what does that feel like to you?
Procrastination.
Avoidance.
That heavy feeling you call laziness.
But it is self-preservation.
Sometimes what we call laziness is actually fear of failing again. Sometimes it is fear of succeeding and not being able to maintain it. Sometimes it is fear of proving ourselves wrong. And sometimes it is simple mental fatigue from fighting invisible battles for too long.
Your physiology is trying to keep you safe from emotional pain. So it reduces your drive because stepping forward feels dangerous.
Let me ask you something, and allow yourself to truly feel it.
What is your mind trying to protect you from right now?
Sit with that question. Because that question will give you more clarity than calling yourself lazy ever will.
Now I want you to have a small conversation with yourself.
“I am sorry for calling you lazy when you were actually overwhelmed. I am sorry for not seeing how much pressure you were carrying silently. Dear myself, can you forgive me for misunderstanding you?”
Pause after reading that.
Feel what changes inside you.
When you stop attacking yourself, you free up energy. When you stop labeling yourself, you create space for curiosity.
Instead of asking,
“Why am I so lazy?” try asking,
“What am I afraid of in this dream?”
Your dream is still yours. The fire did not die. It is just covered under layers of unprocessed fear and stored pressure.
Your mind is protecting you in the only way it currently knows how. And protection is not wrong. It just needs guidance.
If you want to understand your mind better and help it grow you, let us explore it together.
I am just one “Hi” away.
📩 ExpressToAnmol@gmail.com
Your Psychologist,
Ambidextrous Anmol
Did you feel heard?
I’d love to know how this post made you feel, and if there’s something I could do better, please let me know.
