I hear you, and it sounds like you’ve been through a lot. Considering the situation you’re in—the past you’ve endured, all the things you’ve tried that didn’t work out (and at times even worked against you), the disappointments, the moments you placed your trust and faith into something only to be met with painful lessons—there’s a lot, both said and unsaid, that has taken a toll on your will to live.
Yes, I understand how all of this can make living feel more and more challenging.
If I were in your shoes, my will to live would also be affected, just like yours is now.
However, I believe there’s something within you that’s asking for attention. It’s fragile, its voice barely audible amidst all the chaos... but it’s there. Somehow persistent.
Can you think of what voice it could be?
What I think... is that it’s hopefully hope. Think about it: there’s some part of you that still believes in you. A part that knows you can make it through—just like you have all these years, again and again, even when you didn’t realize it.
Now, your logical or rational mind might say, “This time it’s different… harder.” And that makes you doubt yourself, say things to yourself that you wouldn’t even say to another human being. So how could we dare say them to ourselves?
And that’s exactly where the voice of hope needs to be strengthened.
Hope is not an illusion. It’s a life force. It’s a possibility—a path that can become real when walked with the right mindset and supportive actions.
Right now, hope may be fragile, not yet able to clearly show you the way. But it’s the very force that brought you here, made you reach out, made you seek help.
Let’s acknowledge the effort it took to do that. Let’s nurture it, so it can grow strong enough to guide you toward the version of yourself you’ve been silently wishing for.
Sometimes, you’re just a “Hi” away from the process of becoming a proud version of yourself.
Your Psychologist,
Ambidextrous Anmol